So, I've been 22 all of an hour and a half, and I cant say that I'm entering this new year of my existence happily
I had my heart broken by someone I havent even met
Which in and of itself sounds so ridiculously stupid I can hardly believe it myself
So, now an hour and a half into my 22 year on this earth, I denounce love
If the way my last relationship ended was any indicator, I'm making a wise decision
When your now ex is involved in a car wreck only a week and a half into your relationship, loses three years worth of memories and essentially forgets your entire existence, then its time to step down and walk away from the love
I cant believe how low I am - today should be happy
But all I can think about is how lonely I am
How the only way I receive any mind from either gender is to behave like a whore, which is so not me, its laughable
I just want the hurting to stop
I want my misfortune to end
Dont I deserve even a small run of luck?
Havent I earned the right to find a little happiness with another?
I dont know how much further down I need to go before the universe will see fit to end this continuous cycle of pain
I dont know how much harder I have to put it out there into the cosmos that I am lonely and want to meet my someone
I only that going into this year, I only had one wish and I shant receive it
I want to be loved
Familial love is good
Friendly love is great
But neither are what I desire as I have them
I want the romantic love that has eluded me for so long
And yet...that one wish of wishes, all I want and have wanted, and wished for for the last 6 years of my life will not be granted
When will I - if ever - be loved?