egh

im jealous of you in many ways
im also depressed and lonely
sad
i want to die
i feel like life has nothing for me
like im meaningless to eveything
i lack a purpose and a point
i hate being alone
i wish i was never alone
whenever im alone is when i feel worst
i seek people for validation
for purpose
when im alone i feel like i have nothing
like im nothing

i dont know what to do with myself
i have this growing pain in my chest
this lonelyness
i cant stand

i dont want to look at myself in the mirror
i hate myself
i hate everything about me
i just wish i was a happier better person

i wish i never existed

maybe i want to be so stupid i dont understand my life
the world anything